A wriggle to know the real me, to explore the things coming out in my way.. a lot has done yet a lot has to be done.. i hardly have any regret from life.. i just love my life the way it is for if the past haven't had happened i wouldn't have know the value of my present n my future.. My blog is a reflection of what i feel when I'm glad to skyrocketing heights and also when I'm low to seabed depths.. my experiences.. my memories and many more things that you may revael youself..!!

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Think about it!

Happy Navratras Dear Reader!

Soaked in the celebrations of Navratras I looked around this wonderful place where the festivities of rejoicing the victory of Maa Durga over evil is spread all around..

Did anyone  bothered to look around this place through my eyes (read peepers) ?

I am afraid NOT ( in capitals)

I don't want to hurt any religious sentiments but the people defying and chanting the name of Durga are also the one who disrespect the women in their lives or around them in one way or the other.... And the irony it's that they never leave any opportunity doing the same again and again ..

In our own country where women is worshiped she is also raped, assaulted, molested, teased and tortured in n number of ways..
According to facts India after Bangladesh records highest number of cases of acid attacks.. And 99% of them are against women.So a crazy thickheaded moron gets to spoil a girl's life just because his stupid male ego is hurt!
Fair enough.??
Sisters are molested by their brothers because the bad ass prick (pardon my french) thought they won't get anything more easy then this!
How virtuous is that..??
Wives are beaten by husbands so that they can display their manliness to world for the fact that not only they dominate their wives but treat them like some street dogs too.
You think such husbands are praiseworthy..??
You rape your best friend because she was fool enough to trust you..or maybe because some friend of you provoked you.. or because a girl you barely knew wore something that was revealing and inviting according to you.
So you decided to punish her..right..??

If I keep going on their its no neb to this post.. but the nitty-gritty is women in India and in most of the other countries too are not provided with the respect and security they deserve to live and nest with.. they are still mutilated by domestic violencesexual harassmentforced sex selective abortions, child marriage, trafficking, dowry etc.
Is this not called being hypocritical..??
IS it not high time we stop turning a blind eye to all this..??
We talk about various schemes of uplifting the living standard of women.. but fail to provide her with something she needs the most - the feeling of being secure!
Do we need to debate on the common grounds for this issue..??

If she can give you life.. She can rip it off too..!!

PS She is the one who brought you in this world.
     She is the one who will bring your child this world.
     She is someone's daughter.. someone's sister.. someone's love.. someone's SOMEONE!
     She is the one you WORSHIP.

     "Worshiping the HOLY DEITY when you cannot respect her reflection in every women around you is of no 

     use literally"
    It's doesn't makes sense to me at least.

Monday, October 15, 2012

The much lost peepers..!!

my good old glasses..!!
This is a story of my peepers.. the one that are always abandoned.... by not to mention me of-course but that doesn't offends them much.. for they always decide to make me pay back.. they are always absconding.. :/
and then after ages even if i find them back (magically) i manage to take the liberty of setting them free again.. Oh I'm sorry all over again..!!
These careless peepers i tell you..!! :p

So on a chilly day today i decided to start with the much talked novel by J.K. Rowling The Casual Vacancy..
All set with a soothing mug of coffee in my one hand.. and the book in the other.. i darted towards the cozy cane swing of mine.. and just when i pined up my loose hair and opened the Novel.. i felt a familiar stress.. a hint of headache n strain over my eyes.. yes i need my peepers is what popped in my mind..!!
But hey when was the last time i saw them..or put them on.. (hate to admit it but i look so weirdly nerdy wearing them.. i avoid them to the best possible stretch)..!!

So have i lost them again..??
Hell Yesssssss..!! :/

well in that case.. it's not a new story..!!

The latest (lost) one..!!

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Nervous Bites..!!

Even though i'm in a rush i needed to post this badly..
my hands have been shaking out of nervousness since morning..
and then something hit me that i have been chanting for a few mins now..
n guess what..it works!

So while being nervous all you need to do is..
Close you eyes
and say "I'm a sexy and confident girl.. so fuck the world..!!"

PS some may call it whatever, but i call it verbal release therapy..it's all about perspective u know..!!

Monday, September 24, 2012

So Ravin gets Married..!!

I was plopping down just next to him..
He was rubbernecking me with eyes wide open..
I continued wiping my tears before they could roll down my cheeks but i couldn't do my best to hide them anyway..
He kept gawking in surprise making me look more daffy..
He was my classmate.. and we never had an interaction.. we were sitting in a local while on our way back to our places from college.. but i knew he wanted to know what i was reading that made me cry while i was surrounded by so many people.
Crying in front of somebody is a big deal for me so even though it is not important from the view of this post to know who he was who noticed me sobbing and any such stuff but i could not find a more proper starting because that's one of my fondest memories when i talk about the book "I too had a love story"..
A very close pal of mine asked me to read that novel owing to interest in reading.. it didn't take me long enough to find the book.. and i started reading the book like a nerdy bookworm who runs through an exam preparation fever and is all into her books when comes the season of exams..
i was so deeply involved in ti that i just couldn't help but read the book day and night even during my lectures while hiding the novel below my notebooks..
i remember i completed the book in 4 days.. and it was the last chapter of the book that i was rading at that time when i was caught shedding tears in a local.. and i don't wanna go through the details of how embarrassing it was but something was of much more relevance for me at that time..
i wanted to know what happened next..
Did he ever moved on..?? (for those who have read the bestseller know what i am talking about.. for the rest "aapka jeevan tab tak saarthak nahi ho sakta jab tak aap yeh book na padh le :)" )
and i knew i have made a connecting with this Guy who had gone through this much deal of pain in his life and is still surving.. I knew deep down that Godd things are to happen to this MAN..!!
then came "Can love happen twice..??" which took my heart away again.. (anybody interesting in reading can have the novel from me :D)

23rd sept'12 (yesterday)
Now that i was following Ravin on FB i knew what was going around in his life..
His status update yesterday was a little concerning.. It said.. "it's time to move on".. and i wondered what he regards to..??

24th sept'12 (Today)
It must have been 5 in the evening when i logged into my Fb account just to find out that he finally has not just moved on but has taken a giant leap.. He had tied the pious knot with some lucky lad "Khusboo chauhan".. and i can not express how delighted i was to know that some thing big and really alluring has happened to him (someone i adore for a reason still unknown)..
I wished him luck and happiness.. and I prayed to God to bless the couple..!!
I still don't know what i am so happy about because he wont even be knowing if i exist.. but then it doesn't matters.. does it..??

PS It's always a delight in watching someone who has suffered a great deal in one's life to move to a pleasing phase that finally brings sheer bliss to one..!!
God blessya Ravin.. :)
You are one of those few who actually made an impact on my Life..!!

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Movie Review: BARFI!

Watched Barfi a few days back..

The movie is about a boy  (Murphy.. called Barfi played by ranbir Kapoor) who can neither speak nor listen.. but is so full of beans.. that everyone can learn from him how to live or to live atleast than just existing.. How he falls in love with Shruti (Ileana D’cruz), a girl who has got it all.. Beauty, class, perfection but not the freedom.. not the freedom of listening to her heart.. Being misguided by her mother she marries someone else n Barfi is left heartbroken.. Simultaneously enters Jhilmil (Priyanka Chopra) who’s an autistic girl.. abandoned by her family.. Kidnapped.. Kidnapped again and kidnapped once again..only to leave Barfi as the One accused.. who then throws light on everything and the story unfolds into an emotional squall that's has the potency to shatter you down while soothing you collaterally..!!

Barfi revolves around three people and all emit so much that can be absorbed..
Barfi and Jhilmil’s love story depict true unconditional love.. that has actually vanshied (as-per-my- belief) from this place we call earth ..
Shruti shares a bond with Barfi that might be love.. might be friendship.. or anything that draws her crazy enough to leave her well settled world behind her in order to bring Barfi out of miseries..!!

Barfi shows the relationships the way they should be.. but ofcourse are not in verity..!!
You are promised to have a smile on your face while your eyes are wet.. Barfi is a must watch..!!

 PS while he is sane, he can't express wholly and while she can express she is not completely stable..!!

PPS Ranbir is has no lines in the movie but he still manages to charm you with his brilliance performance.. his vibrant, effervescent, peppy, zesty,perky yet dole-some character takes you miles away from your reality into a world where even silence speaks.. and it speaks in a language called happiness.. humanity.. generousness..!!

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

P!! J@uN..!!

Bouncing back after sooooooooooooooo soooooooooooooo sooooooooooooo long.. that too cz i was feeling terribly alone.. n that provokes me to write.. may be something vauge.. something too futile.. but it's all worth the cost..!!
hope to find some time out of hectic schedule soon enough to come up with a post thats jus half wriiten since ages..!!

PS a big sorry to all my regular readers and occasional visitors too.. :)
     God Blessya..!!

Thursday, March 29, 2012

@ cOnVeRs@t!oN..!!

you got to be kidding me!
i wish i was :(

but how would i survive all this time ?
you have had survived for months before..!!

and how would you..??
by looking at you..!!

but you wont be allowed to carry your phone..how would you see my pictures ? :P
i never need your pictures.. i can see you whenever i close my eyes..!! :)

aww.. but..
hey.. i'll be back soon n then we'll spend great time togather..soon..very soon.. i'll be there with you.. in your arms..hearing your heartbeat..and wiping your tears..!!

but i never cry..(with tears in her eyes)
i know you are still crying!

------ (she couldn't say a words this time but only sob..silently..slowly..dolefully..gloominess surrounded her like clouds around a mount's peak..very carefully she kept a hand over the microphone and swabed her tears with the other..!!)
wipe off your tears yourself this time.. i promise i'll be there the next time you cry!

you always say that..
and you always keep cring.. my cry baby..!!

(with watery eyes and a weak wee smile) hmm..
what hmm?

come back soon (and tears made their way again..!!)
take care..i love you!!

you too and me too..!! (smiles half heartedly)
miss you..

i miss you too my soldier..!!

PS "a real telephonic conversation held between a soldier and his girl"..!!

PPS i am officially back guys.. so keep looking for new post every now and then at http://graciousenough.blogspot.in/ ..!!

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Le$$on Le@rnT..!!

First thing first..apologies for the stint of post the previous days..and in advance for all the short posts I'm gonna come up in the near times.. =)
This post is about the wisdom I'm sinking in these days ::

Your willingness to be receptive to circumstances no matter how harsh is what will ultimately revitalize your self-image. You can get back in the game and bounce back better than ever, but you need to wait for a sign of encouragement. Bide your time wisely, tune out negativity and slow down. Give yourself time to know where you stand. Seek a retreat so you can recover your nerve, and don't be so hard on yourself because life isn't fair, never was, never will be. You wouldn't get what you dreamt for most of the times but that doesn't mean you ought to stop dreaming. No never. Go on, Dream higher, Rise higher and never let anthing drag you back to your shabby past and never ever forget to be young and silly to be old and wise.

"I know I know I'm not just an year older but an year wiser too"  =D ;D

Tuesday, January 24, 2012


Winters for me came with a tidy sum of trvaelling this time and that explains the lack of posts in my blog and b'cz the travelling is not over yet all i'm gonna do is leave you guys with this wonderful extraordinarily mouthwatering voluptuous delicacy that i luckily had a hellot of chances to have in the nearly gone time..!!

PS i'll be back soon..!!

Thursday, January 12, 2012

!3 0 0 !< $ ..!!

After all, reading is arguably a far more creative and imaginative process than writing; when the reader creates emotion in their head, or the colors of the sky during the setting sun, or the smell of a warm summer's breeze on their face, they should reserve as much praise for themselves as they do for the writer - perhaps more.

—Jasper Fforde
From The Well of Lost Plots..!!

sorry folks.. haven't been around for a while but now that i'm back  i'm gonna jot dwn about my friends i have been spending my entire time theses day.. Even though they have been with me for so long i never thought i'll write about them someday but now that i have appercieved the fact that i can never thank them for being in my life, for making a wiser person,for standing by my side through thick n thin.. i owe this much to them.

books have always been a staircase for me that take me away to where i want to be !

from fairytales to blooming chronicles of radical changes and finaaly towards a sane youth..books made crafty and perceptive with each passing day.. i never left them alone and so did they.
I'm lucky enough to have been privelged to possess a good lot of great books and no I'm not bragging about it. it's just that it is a great feeling to have a library of your own. Thanks to my Dad and Maternal Grandpaa for that. it would never have been possible without you two handsome gentlemen in my life. Love you xoxo..!!
Books have always fascinated me as told to me by my mum..(she calls me a bookworm but yea in a quping way).books always tickle me inside. i literally get butterflies in my stomach when i have my fav books in my hands (yes they are my first love..cheers to that).

More than i write i read.. so yea i'm a reader.. a reader who even though prefers ebooks yet die for travelling around the world (with my spl one <3<3) and vist from great ancient like Abbey Library St. Gallen, Switzerland; Real Gabinete Portugues De Leitura, Rio De Janeiro, Brazil; Rijkmuseum Library, Amsterdam  to modern hi-tech libraries like Central Library, Seattle; National Library, Belarus.... well i ought to stop b'cz i can never stop talking about them.

For me reading is  divine. My thoughts, worries, fears all end up with the touch of those pulp scented extremely pale fine and feeble sheets on my fingers. they might lack color but they cause the air around so colorful and bright with rainbows and butteflies and ballons and what not that you give up all those little creases on your forehead to curves on your lips..!!